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As a child of an Episcopal priest, I grew up hearing the phrase “ashes to ashes, dust to dust” at more Ash Wednesday services and funerals than I care to count. I was too busy either squirming out of boredom or trying to wipe ashes from my forehead to give the implications behind this phrase much thought. 

Before my hippie parents died from their addictions in the late 1970s, they explained to me how they intended to put the phrase “ashes to ashes” into practice by choosing cremation. My teenage mind envisioned all kinds of bizarre scenarios of what I could do with their ashes. My gallows brand of humor predated Weekend at Bernies (1989) by over a decade. 

My parents’ lack of parenting and even basic decision-making skills often left me feeling as though I was living in a childhood dystopia. By the time I hit my teens, my life had become too surreal to be believable. Fortunately, I saved my soul and sanity by embracing the absurdity of Monty Python’s Flying Circus, which first ran on PBS circa 1974.

Their choice of cremation proved to be one of their few sound lifestyle choices. They made this decision because they believed this practice was more in line with their earth ethics than a commercial traditional burial. According to the Green Burial Council, annually traditional burials in the United States use approximately

  • 4.3 million gallons of embalming fluid, 19% of which is formaldehyde, methanol, and benzene
  • 20 million board feet of hardwoods, including rainforest woods
  • 1.6 million tons of concrete
  • 17,000 tons of copper and bronze
  • 64,500 tons of steel
  • Caskets and vaults leaching iron, copper, lead, zinc, and cobalt

While modern traditional cremation may be less toxic, experts say the energy and emissions are equal to two tanks of gas in an average car. Simply put, that’s too much noxious residue to suit my soul. This is one road trip I’d prefer to avoid—and I’ve decided to go a step further than my parents by giving my body back to the earth in a more natural manner. 

The question remained though how exactly I could do that. When I turned the big 4-0, I found myself drawn to the concept of a green burial as a way to leave no trace behind when I depart. But, eco-friendly burials remained a service only available in select locations, and any burial expenses cost more than what I could afford to set aside. So I set aside any decisions regarding what would happen to my body after I died. After all, I was young and so far had avoided overindulging in those vices that destroyed much of my extended family. 

Then COVID hit, along with wildfires impacting Portland, Oregon, where I live—not to mention the arrival of my 60th birthday. The uptick in mailings from AARP and others marketing to the “silver hairs” (sounds more upscale I suppose than old farts) told me I needed to make some key life decisions including what would happen to my body upon my demise.

So I began researching natural burial options, and soon learned I am among the majority of Americans intrigued by this option. According to the National Funeral Directors Association’s (NFDA) 2022 Consumer Awareness and Preferences Report, 60.5 percent of respondents would be interested in exploring “green” funeral options because of their potential environmental benefits, cost savings, or for some other reason, up from 55.7 percent in 2021.

While the association supports eco-friendly burials, as NFDA spokesperson and funeral director Stephen Kemp notes, state and federal laws limit the options they can provide to families. For example, he finds the Hindu method of natural burial where families do the cremation themselves to be a wonderful process. “I wish we could do it like they do in India, but some of the EPA rules forbid that here in the United States.” 

When meeting a family who desires a natural burial, he first listens to what they want. Then he tries to ascertain what services he can provide as a licensed funeral director working in Michigan where most green burial practices are not permitted. “As funeral directors, it’s our fiduciary duty to explain to people what the laws are and what we can do in terms of what they may desire,” Kemp opines.

According to Kemp, the most popular request he receives from those families looking for a greener burial is a natural burial in a green cemetery. I already ruled this option out as my estranged family has no communal plot where I could rest permanently. Given how “radio silence” is my extended family’s preferred means of communication, I figured no one would bother to visit let alone ensure my grave doesn’t get overrun with weeds, varmints, and too-horny Goth kids.   

In her bestseller Stiff, science writer Mary Roach unpacks the myriad other options for those wishing to give their bodies to science. While I’m an organ donor and hope my body can benefit the living upon my demise, somehow the concept of having my body prodded and poked and then put on display proved to be too much even for my ghoulish sensibilities. 

In looking over the other, greener choices, the water lover in me felt drawn to alkaline hydrolysis. This water-based process of cremation results in over 90% energy savings compared to flame-based cremation. But then I wondered what would then happen to my remains. Did I want them turned into stones placed in a water-soluble urn such as a papier-mâché turtle that would be sent out to sea, or used to help create an artificial reef formation? These options looked pretty on paper but were either too impractical or way out of my price range. 

As an avid hiker, fly-fisher, cyclist, kayaker, and gardener I felt a strong tug to go back into the earth as living soil. So I found myself attracted to human composting, a method of accelerated human decomposition known scientifically as Natural Organic Reduction (NOR). After this process is completed my remains could be placed in a plant-able urn or converted into soil that could be returned directly back to the earth. 

When I mentioned the process of human composting to a few friends, the responses I got ranged from morbid curiosity to outright disgust, not to mention joking about how my soil would provide the perfect growing conditions for cannabis plants. Undaunted by their remarks, I continued in my research where I learned that NOR was legalized in Oregon where I currently reside. Washington State and Colorado have also legalized NOR, with laws under consideration in New York and California. 

After weeding out some for-profit human composting centers that came off as too commercialized and cold for my tastes, I discovered Herland Forest, a non-profit natural cemetery located on the eastern edge of the Cascadian wilderness. For starters, their price of $3,000 was at least half of what the other outfits charged. 

In my phone conversation with Senior Steward Walt Patrick, I found their philosophy towards nature in sync with my soul. He describes the difference between traditional burial practices and their practice. “Commercial death care does what it can to keep the deceased from returning to the natural world and reentering the cycle of life. In contrast, we do what we can to help the deceased become a dynamic part of the cycle of life. NOR offers a way to transition from the path one walked in life to becoming part of the larger circle of life.”

Patrick described the process they utilize to turn a body into soil.

An insulated coffin configured as a cradle is prepared with a layer of 80 gallons of moist wood chips, and the body is then laid in the cradle on top of the wood chips and covered with another layer of wood chips.  The cradle lid is then put in place and bolted down, and every few days, the cradle is rolled back and forth.

The temperature inside the cradle is monitored. As the decomposition gets underway the internal temperature will climb to above 130°F. and then slowly come down. When the internal temp falls to below 80°F, the initial process is complete.  The cradle is then opened and the composted remains are removed, processed, and stored in 55-gallon drums.

The resulting soil is either picked up for distribution on private property or added to Herland’s living sanctuary filled with native pine, fir, and oak, along with non-native varieties such as chestnut, walnut, ginkgo, cherry, apple, and hazelnut. So I have the option of either letting a buddy grow buds with my remains so they can smoke my spirits or having hikers walk all over me now that I’m part of the PNW landscape. 

This venture represents an outgrowth of the Windward Education and Research Center, which for decades has utilized forest products to transform the remains of large farm large animals into nutrient-rich compost. After Washington State legalized NOR, they continued composting the remains of the animals they work with in their sustainability research. But as Patrick noted, “The change in the law just allowed us to apply the skills we’d been developing for two decades to the disposition of human remains.”

After the decomposition process is completed,  the compost is the property of the family, and they can do whatever they wish with it. The photos on their website of their permaculture forest, located on the eastern edge of the Cascadian wilderness, told me I’d be at home in their living sanctuary helping to feed the native pine, fir, and oak.

Having made the decision to participate in Herland Forest’s program, I’m filled with a sense of peace knowing I will leave behind a living and lasting legacy. More importantly, as I emerge from an extended period of isolation as a result of this global pandemic, I’m filled with an intense burning desire to connect with nature. Right now, I am ready but not eager for that time when I will become a part of yet another contribution to the Pacific Northwest wilderness.

An earlier version of this article was posted at The Daily Beast.

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As a freelance writer with dual MDiv/MSW degree from Yale Divinity School and Columbia University, I focus on the rise of secular spirituality, religious satire, spiritual health & wellness, faith...